When Life Becomes the Lesson

Reflections from Week 5 of The Satisfied Self

Week 5 of the course is always a turning point.
The women are into it. They’re learning so much, applying the tools, feeling the shifts. Motivation is high—we’re right in the heart of it, almost halfway—and the flow is just wonderful.

Our weekly session is on Monday.
Normally the replay is up within 12 hours. 24 at most. I’ve been using this platform for years, and it has never happened that a replay wasn’t available the next day.

But this week…the platform crashed.
And now it’s Thursday morning. And still no video.

I’m getting emails from the few who missed the live session and from the many who were there and want to review. Tech support keeps promising they’re on it, and I keep refreshing for updates… but nothing yet.

And of all weeks—this is the week it happens.
Because what was this week’s topic?

Acceptance.

Why we don’t want to accept things that are uncomfortable or unfair.
Why we stay stuck in aggravation, worry, and anxiety.
How we keep trying to “fix” the situation, even with actions we already know don’t work.

So here I was, teaching all of this on Monday, and by Tuesday morning, I had to live it instead.

I had to use the very tools I’m teaching: pausing, noticing, naming, staying with the feelings instead of jumping into the familiar habit of trying to fix what I cannot fix.

I tuned in.
I felt the tightness in my stomach.
The frustration.
The disappointment.
The anxiety.
And yes, some anger too.

But the urge to “fix” didn’t disappear.
My brain kept offering solutions:

“Check your email again.”
“Refresh the replay page.”

I used more of the tools I’m teaching: tapping, sharing, writing gratitudes… and then circling back and doing it all again when the feelings resurfaced.

I am accepting. And I am working on accepting.

Acceptance doesn’t mean liking the situation or pretending it’s fine.
It means facing what is, instead of exhausting myself fighting a battle I am never going to win.

I wouldn’t have chosen this little “opportunity,” but it definitely made the week’s lesson real.

Sometimes the universe gives you the lesson.
And sometimes… it gives you the practice round you didn’t know you needed.

And this week?
I got both.